DREAM: Find my way back

I had a dream this morning. See I woke early, but then at close to 8:00am I went back to sleep. I remember my alarm clock going off and I remember punching snooze and then....

I entered dream land and didn't hear my alarm clock go off again. It is needless to say that I woke up 13 minutes late to start my work day. Oh well, I am allowed this mistake at least once a year, aren't I?!

Anyway, this is the dream I had and I'll be calling it:

Find my way back

I am flying and I'm in an area that I don't recognize. I see some train tracks and I fly down for a closer look. I see 3 young boys at a small building near the tracks and they seemed to be working out some sort of plan. I'm thinking that I can fly down and ask these boys where I am at and maybe they might know how I can find my way back.

I fly down to the boys and they seemed excited for they've never seen a human flying like a bird before. "How do you do that? Have you always been able to fly like a bird?" I answered them and said, "Yes, I have always been able fly. I'll show you how, but first I need your help. I don't know where I am and I am afraid that I won't be able to find my way back. Will you help me?" They said, "Cool! Sure we can help, but we need your help too. Will you help us stop a train?" I said, "Sure! Here comes one now! Do you want me to stop that one?" They said, "No! We will all meet up at this building at a certain time that we will clue you in on and you will know that it is time to come here and stop a train." I said, "Ok! What are we going to do in the mean time?" And they said, "We're gonna take you to this place that has gone out of business and they are selling or practically giving away everything!" I said, "Cool! Let's go take a look!"

I flew above them and followed them to an old large barn looking building. I flew down and went in with the boys. Everything was on makeshift tables that only sat no more than a foot off the ground, so I had to squat to look at things. At least that was the case with their jewelry and small nick-nacks. But then on the walls there was few cosmetics. I wasn't really finding anything I liked. One of the boys came up to me (he had very blonde hair) and said, "Look! Is this not cool or what?" He handed me a ring that had an ice cream cone and flowers instead of ice cream in the cone. I said, "Yeh, that's cute!" He said, "They've been trying to sell this stuff for so long, that you can take it for free!" He handed it to me and I took it, but I did notice a price tag with 25 cents on it. I really didn't like the ring, but I didn't want to hurt the boy's feelings, so I held onto it until he passed by to look at other things.

I had in my hand about 3 pairs of ear rings that I was willing to pay for and went on to take a look at the "Cosmetic Wall". Things there were so old looking! I could see some of the product ingredients seperating and it looked useless to look for anything I wanted and would be willing or safe to use. This didn't stop many young girls from pushing each other, to take a look. This craziness was only cause they really thought that this stuff should be free.

I went over to a circular table and sat on the edge to look at a spin stand that had a few lip glosses left. I was checking a few out, thinking that I could at least get some of this, if it doesn't look too old or something. Just as I picked up one and decided whether it would work, there came 3 guys in their late teens maybe early 20s and one began to say some things to me. "Hey girl, that looks like a good color! I love a girl with ruby red lips!" I turned to look at the guy speaking to me. This guy repulsed me! He was wearing a sleeveless black muscle shirt, that clearly showed off what he thought were muscles (I thought otherwise) and a chunky gold necklace (that was clearly fake) and had black greasy hair that he had slicked back to reveal his glaring forehead, and black evil looking eyes.

Somehow within me, I knew that I shouldn't ignore these guys, for it looked like I could find myself in a very dangerous situation. So I said to him, "You like this one? I'll try it on." I did and let him look. He said, "Yeh baby! That one will do just fine! How about we meet up after this?" I said, "Ok. After I purchase this stuff." He said, "You don't got to buy this crap, it's all free!" But I answered, "Yes, I know. But I want to." He said, "Ok then, I'll wait outside for ya!" And I said, "Ok." I thought to myself, that this was the right thing to do, as in what I said to the guy and the fact that I was going to pay for this stuff, and that afterwards I would just fly away and he wouldn't be able to catch me.

I paid for the stuff and it cost me $4.75 that the salesman clearly appreciated. The man said, "You're my only paying customer in days! Thank you!" I said, "No problem, it was only right for me to pay for this stuff. I hope that you have better luck." And he said, "Thanks! Have a great day!" As I got closer to the door, I was preparing for my take off. I was off the ground before I exited the door and I was high enough to be higher than these guys' heads (that were waiting for me to meet up with). I was looking down on them as they looked up, and the one guy that repulsed me said, "What's up with that bitch? I thought we were gonna hookup?!" I didn't say anything back to him and just continued to fly away.

As I flew almost to the end of the block, I could see the boys I first met at the train tracks. I looked down and they looked up and said, "Meet us at the building near the train tracks. It's time to stop a train!" I said, "Ok! I'm on my way!" As I flew though, I was losing my way. I could see the train tracks for miles, but I couldn't find the building near them. I flew over a hill and could see below, rich men playing golf. They looked up and said, "Hey guys, look! There's a woman flying in the air above us!" They were all looking and pointing. But I didn't stop flying or go down.

Then just at the top of the hill, there were so many electric or phone lines, that I couldn't fly high enough to pass over them, so I had to fly in between many and I could feel the lines touching my stomach and legs, but I didn't stop or get hurt. Just as I passed through the last of these electric lines, I was in another part of the city. I was flying between very tall buildings that I clearly could not rise above, and then an alley way and a makeshift basket ball court, where there were very tall black men (7 or 8 feet tall) playing basket ball in the alley way. One actually could reach up and tried to grab hold of one of my feet. I flew very fast and felt him lose his grip.

I flew passed the alley and the tall buildings and I could see the train tracks again. I was excited this time and really thought that I was very close to where I needed to be. I had to fly over another hill but I followed the tracks this time. I looked down once over the hill and could see a small building that was near the train tracks at the bottom of the hill.

I flew down and entered the building. This place looked much bigger inside than it did on the outside. It was very old and dusty. I was going through some of the rooms, looking for the boys. I was calling out to them, letting them know I was here. Just as I entered the dining area, there was a very old and short man in the kitchen. He had a shotgun in his hand and said, "You! Stop! What are you doing? This is my house! Get out or I'll shoot!" I said, "Ok! Ok! I was looking for three boys..." But before I finished what I was saying, he began to shoot at me! I could feel and hear the gunshots so near me and I started my take off, before I made it to the door!

It was a screen door and I flew right through it! And then I was flying high again, so that the old man couldn't shoot me! Then I flew across the train tracks to this area that looked like a cattle farm. I could smell that this is what it was and as I looked down, I could see workers looking up at me and pointing. But I was so high up that I couldn't hear them. And being that I couldn't really see any animals, I went around to the backside, and into a big sliding wood door and through and could see that this was a butcher house and then out to the other end. These were hispanic workers and had they been saying anything, I wouldn't have been able to understand them. I waved good bye and took off again into the air.

Just as I was flying back to the tracks and the house the boys should have been at, I looked down and there they were. They looked up and saw me and said, "What happened to you? You were supposed to meet us here and stop a train!" I said, "I'm sorry! I ran into lots of trouble trying to get here and now it's too late! I've got to find my way back home!"

Then I woke up and discovered that I must have hit snooze again and didn't know it, for I was supposed to get up no later than 8:50am so that I could shower and start my work day. I looked at my clock and it said 9:20am (I set it purposely 7 minutes fast) and scrabbled out of bed, put some close on, brushed my hair and opened the office. I checked the message machine for any calls. None! Thank goodness!

I finished my ready ruetine, ate breakfast and here I am writing about that crazy dream that took me only an hour to dream. Most of my dreams are like this. In that I experience every one of the scenses: full color, seeing, hearing, smelling, feeling, tasting etc....

Crazy! I tell you what! Maybe I'll share the dream I had on Easter? I'll think about it. Oh, and this flying that I do in most of my dreams, is not a floating as some say they have. I get a running start and then jump into the air and raise my hands in front and start flying. And I fly so fast at times, that I can feel the air pressure I am flying through! I love flying into clouds, for I can feel the cool mist of the clouds! I also have flown into outer space as well. That's a very strange experience that I cannot really describe. I like when I fly, no matter where, but I don't like it when people are somehow able to be so tall that they can touch my feet! Another reoccurrence when I'm flying, is that I am either bare footed (of which I prefer) or I am wearing shoes that are way too big (of which I hate, cause it feels like I can't keep them on)!

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed me sharing this dream.

LOST FOREVER !

I am continuing to watch LOST and loving it! I did a little GOOGLE Search just before the start of this latest season and found out that there will be something like 37 or so more episodes. That really makes me sad, but I know that these people cannot remain LOST forever! LOL!

I'm really not so sure about that! I've recently met some poor souls that seem as though they are lost and will most likely remain that way! It is so incredibly sad, that people aren't willing to take responsibility for the directions they have taken in life! These are fully able, yet they simply want to pass the buck, when it comes to troubles they experience in life.

So sad!

Looking back upon my life, I can see many things that brought me much discomfort. And even though there were many times I too would wish to blaim my problems on someone or something else, I ultimately know that I and I alone, am responsible for all the decisions I have made in my life.

Though loads of my life experiences were hard for me to endure, I can honestly say that I do not wish to go back in time and change a single event.

I'm sure that you have seen movies or read books about going back in time and changing the past in order to change the future. This would and ultimately could be reality, if going back in time were truly possible!

I purchased a DVD called "The Butterfly Effect" and I have watched it a couple of times. The first time, I found the content hard to watch. It had loads of abuses, immoralities and violence! The main character found out that he would experience spots of time that he could not recall. But during these episodes he experienced, he was somehow able to write a journal of each event. Of course, later in time (while in college) he found out that he could read his journals and they would take him back in time. Those around him during these times, would not see him actually leave, because somehow he actually never left.

Anyway, this guy would go back and forth many many times, because each time he would forget something, and that something usually caused more problems than the event that he remembered to change. One example, was when he took more responsibility for something than he should have and this caused his mother such grief that she took up smoking and wound up with cancer.

This is what I'm talking about folks. We can't remember everything that we wish to change, so it's best that we live this one life that we are given to the fullest, take responsibility for our own decisions, words and actions!

Ultimately we need to make sure that we truly believe in Jesus Christ (Who He was and is! He is our Creator!), that we are truly trying to live a life that's pleasing to Him and one that will not bring shame. At the end of this life, though we are forgiven of our sins and though these sins are erased from God's book of our life, He will be reviewing how we lived our lives after we came to the true knowledge of Him and His will for us.

Though we (believers in Jesus Christ) are not and never will be perfect, we will give an account for what we have done with this life that we were given. We will not be cast into Hell with those who refused Jesus, due to our flesh (because all have sinned, continue to sin and fall way short of the glory of God), we will be rewarded accordingly. Some will be rewarded greatly and others will receive little reward, but all (believers in Jesus Christ) will be received by God. Only those who refused and continue to refuse Jesus Christ, these will be sent to Hell and will suffer eternally in the Lake of Fire.

Why anyone would choose that, is beyond me?! But that is exactly what I am talking about here! We are all (individually) accountable and collectively accountable to one another and to God. Let us stop blaiming the world, our families, friends, and enemies (including Satan), for our choices in life! Sure, the Holy Spirit fills us but it is up to us as to His loving guidance. If you call upon Jesus to lead you with His Holy Spirit, He will answer! But it is ultimately our choice to follow His direction! He will not pull us by the hair and make us do what He wants or wishes for us! That's is why prayer and reading His WORD is so important!

We must all be careful of what we fill our eyes, hearts and minds with. Best to fill it daily with good things. We will see and expose our lives with bad things daily, but reject the bad and fill up on the good. We need to be renewed, refreshed and forgiven daily! Our bodies need food, water, work and rest daily! So also, we need that spiritual renewal, refreshing, and discipline daily as well!

Anyway, I think that I've rattled on long enough. Somewhat far from the subject of my favorite show LOST, but not too far really. This show is truly a mystery worth getting lost in and eventually solving and then it has to come to an end. Life is like that as well. It's an exciting mystery and journey and it too will eventually come to an end as well.

But at the end of this life, will you spend eternal life with God or with Satan? I choose God! What about you?!